so i met this new girl at a craft fair on sunday. she's really cool, and into emotions and other stuff like i am. We exchanged numbers and poetry before parting ways (good name for a song i think). i'm really scared though. scared that i might just be interested in her as a replacement for my x-gf. i hate myself so bad for letting her dominate my thoughts every day. in fact i'm in the middle of writing a stream of consciousness piece called 'emoguy33's lament', and so far every line mentions her name at least twice. she has embedded herself deep into my psyche, like a cancer. a beautiful cancer. damn you, foul cancer temptress.

i do plan on calling isobelle (craft fair girl), but i need to move my mind in to a more suitable place. calling her now and complaining that i can't get over my first love would be a bad move. i've been drinking a lot of tea recently, as i find that it helps me to soothe. i'm on my second cup of assam this afternoon. tonight, i think that i will move on to some lady grey, the brisk flavour of the bergamot stimulates my creativity.